Current mood:	apathetic
Current music:	Some rap song.
Entry tags:	shot through the heart.

Bwee.
So I sit here with my pants hanging halfways off of my waist whilst Spiderman 2 plays on the Tv, and I mentally jam to Puffy AmiYumi’s Planet Tokyo. No more than a little while ago, I was shuffling through my pictures.

As I collect them onto my C drive. I ran across one that made me pause, and well up just slightly on the inside.

It’s allegedly a Dojin-slash-manga of Evangelion. That’s the show with God and Giant robots, yanno?

Anyways, it was this one. (Insert picture here.)

And not only that picture, but a few other things have been causing me to sort of well up on the inside. It’s a rage-type thing that irks me.

It’s that thing called Loneliness. And watching the entire series of Love Hina didn’t help me either. Oh, and as a sidenote; I fucking hate Naru, she’s a bitch and should be shanked multiple times for what she does to Keitaro.

But that’s beside the point. What the point is, I’ve figured that chances are know me, I’ll end up being single throughout… Oh, let’s see, eternity. I bet its something I did in a past life or something. Probably did something incomprehensible and stupid that I can’t believe that I did it, so I’m being punished for it.

Fucking crapkarma.

I bought Mezzo. It’s the sequel (I think) to Mezzo Forte, because the one girl kept talking about how Mikura (Lead girl) killed her lover, who you learn is Mikura’s sister. I don’t know how the fuck someone couldn’t tell, I mean they look like twins facially, the only main difference is really hair color and attitude.

Funny thing is another thing with that story; While buying Mezzo, We (That being me and 3 friends and one friends cousin) had ran into a girl. She was buying the Gundam Seed Collectors box. We sparked up conversations about the entire thing, she looked around 17 mayhap, and was with her mother.

She sided with me on the fact that Deathscythe Hell Custom was one of the best Gundams Ever, and so I rubbed it into their faces.

After we left, Brendan (friend) had cursed at himself and said that he should’ve asked for her number. Then proceeded to try and raid my cell phone for numbers (Due to the fact that all of my friends like anime basically and their numbers (those that I have; still accepting more) are in there. He then proceeded to ask me why I don’t ask them out;

Stop. Hammer time.

I didn’t answer though. I never answer those questions. I just told him it wasn’t about me, but more about him and his own self confidence about not asking girls. Proceeded to ask me where do I meet them because he could fall for a girl who liked anime in a second;

I told him that it’s not all about if they like anime or not, but rather their personality. All of the people that I know who like anime and that I talk to have personalities that I can relate to. Though some of them are evil and like to stab things, yes. Who can’t relate to that?

I pointed out places where I met/meet people who have my similar likes, just to be a good friend. (That, and he was on attached to my knees screaming out please, but that’s beside the point.)



Now, I know some people probably took offense to my whole not answering segment, on why I don’t ask some of my friends out. I know some of you too well to not know you took offense. It’s not that I haven’t liked/do like any of you in that way, but rather I’m sort of… What’s the words I can use; sheepish, old fashioned, a goddamned wreck. I think of taking girls out on Boat rides, yanno wit the paddles over an open like, enjoying the view of the sky from a rooftop, or watching the wind blow leaves off of the tree during fall, comforting each other when we’re down, having fun when we’re happy, resting on one-another as pillows. Enjoying the sunset and sunrise on a grassy knoll while enjoying lunches together.


-Dragged out sigh.- I doubt any girl wants a guy like that.


Anyways, wanted to get that off my chest. I’ll post later again, or something.